Thursday, 1 February 2018

Stuff from January 2018


  Reptile Fossils, Pop Art, & Roses

Small to giant reptiles
once dominated the ecosystem
of this medium-small planet,
spinning its way through space
around a medium-small star
part-way up one of the spiral arms
of a galaxy that’s one of trillions
in this part of the universe;

they did this
for hundreds of millions of years
without telling anyone
and, as far as we know,
without reflection or wonder or self-awareness,
then went extinct or evolved otherwise
hundreds of millions of more years
before our species
evolved to study their fossil record,
and to think about it,
and to talk about ourselves,
doing which has made us think
we’re somehow significant –
an odd word in the context –

while in the mid-1960s,
in our quirky way of reckoning time,
Andy Warhol listened to the song,
‘Sally Go ’Round the Roses’
over and over again for hours
as he produced garish pop art
with the same old universe around him
that had surrounded the dinosaurs.
  


   Pathos & Scorn

A small blue car
bearing just the driver,
male or female,
I couldn’t tell,
zoomed down
the otherwise
somnolent street,
its engine all revved up
into a howling growl,
or maybe a growling howl,
the end of the street
and its stop sign
less than fifty metres away,
and I thought of the driver:
What a pathetic person!
Then it occurred to me
that I’m pathetic, too,
only not as aggressively
noisy about it in public,
and that,
when viewed dispassionately,
our entire species
is pathetic to the core.


         Eggshell 

We have protection
surrounding us,
an eggshell
dangling from a spider web
in a good, stiff breeze.

We have sustenance,
with vapour billowing
from our cloud cleansers,
where we wash off
the thin film of soil
that also sustains us.

We have transportation
inside of which we run errands,
mobile eggshell replicas
we can barely control,
and sometimes we die
when they crack or shatter.

We have jobs,
which bang us against
the inside of our eggshell
without our even noticing
or thinking twice about it,
because it’s there.

We look at each other
using mirrors and blindfolds,
sonorously exchanging
tall tales about worlds
without eggshell or dirt,
convincing each other
that make-believe is real.



    Small Compensation

Sometimes it seems to me,
probably stupidly,
that all our lives and deaths
are fractions of a world soul
that encompasses all of the
pleasure and pain,
joy and terror,
purity and pollution,
artistic experiences
and dull drudgery
of all living things,
and I rejoice myself
to observe my dog
adding to his enjoyment
of smells and fellowship
that I can barely imagine,
which adds to my experience
of the world soul
when it absorbs me
from my limitations,
although I can’t forget
that this is small compensation
for all the agonies and terror
resulting from human cruelty
inflicted on each other
and other animals
in our billions.


               Intimate Secrets

She hid her face in the pillow
in a paroxysm of embarrassment and fear,
and I said, ‘Hey! Don’t worry!
‘This is me that you’re talking to.
‘I’m never going to tell anyone,’
and so I’m not going to tell you now;
no, you’re not going to know her secret,
even though she later done did me wrong,
with heaps of hurt involved,
and told me all sorts of lies
along the way
that I’m not even
going to report now, either,
because it would embarrass me too much
to recount publicly, in specifics,
what a predictably pathetic mark I was,
anyway.


             The Smirk 

She smirked.
Then she said something
that she clearly thought was clever,
but was actually dimwitted and rude,
but it was the smirk:
the sides of the mouth
turned barely upward
and the middle of the upper lip
pushed down over the lower,
with the chin lowered slightly also,
to give just a hint of the impression
of looking down at the recipient,
the whole face arranged to convey
smugness,
self-satisfaction,
scorn,
condescension,
derision,
contempt,
and I’ve-got-your-number,
a nasty, affected travesty of a smile
that expressed no humour or warmth.

I have no ability to tolerate smirking;
it trips one of my triggers,
and only my commitment
to the principle of non-violence,
my aversion to being absorbed
into the criminal-justice system,
and the context,
a high-school hall
crowded with parents and teachers,
the smirker being one of my daughter’s teachers,
kept me from smashing that smirk
right off of her face.


       Colourful Surnames
 
I know, or have heard of,
plenty of people
in the English-speaking world
with the surnames
of White, Black,
Grey (or Gray), Brown,
Green (or Greene),
Gold, Silver,
and even a few
surnamed Rose and Blue,
and can google up people with the surnames
Pink, Violet,
and Redd (but not Red –
although Rossi is common in Italian),
but I can find no mention of anybody
with the surname Yellow
since 1653
(although Huang is common in Chinese).
I wonder why?
I wonder why about all sorts of odd stuff
when I’m walking my dog around the park.


                     From

I’ve been a bloke with an accent
for forty-five or so years,
and during those years
from twelve to fifteen thousand
essentially dull and superficial people
have asked, upon encountering me,
where I was from,
or some variation of this.
People with Asian facial features,
from what I’ve heard,
get hit with this at least as often,
no matter what their accent.
From.
Nadia from Pussy Riot rapped,
‘Don’t be stupid / Don’t be dumb /
Vagina’s where you’re really from.’
The superficials don’t like that answer,
any more than when I’ve responded,
‘From my father’s balls.’
From.
I feel like I’m from Hamilton,
since I’ve lived here longer
than I ever lived anywhere else,
but of course the superficials
won’t accept that.
I moved to Hamilton from Otorohanga.
I moved to Otorohanga from Guam.
I moved to Guam from Texas,
where the superficials also
interrogated me about my accent.
From.
Am I from my birth country?
We left when I was seven weeks old.
Am I from where my ancestors lived?
Recent or distant ones?
Am I from where I started school?
From.
Does having been a lecturer
make me from Academia?
Does my work as a labourer and
my grandfather’s trade-union loyalties
make me from the working class?
But my father’s working as
a small-town GP
makes me from the middle class.
From.
I’m from a dysfunctional nuclear family,
which is much more to the point
than where I went to school.
From.
My geographical location
a half-century or more ago
tells you little about who I am,
unless, of course, your objective
is instead to tell me what I am
and to jam me into a box
that’s the wrong shape
and far too small.
From.
Like John Frum and the isle of Tanna,
I’m not going back.




Wednesday, 3 January 2018

Stuff from December 2017


            Hope For The Future? 

There they were
in a supermarket
three 14-or-15-year-old boys
cavorting
jumping around
and dancing wildly but ineptly,
shouting adolescent inanities
to each other.

One of them
plucked a plastic packet
of potato pom poms
from a freezer
and tossed it
in a basketball-style
jump hook shot
smack into the wire trolley
one of his mates was pushing
on the other side of the freezer,
and they cheered and high-fived
before gambolling on their way
down one of the aisles.
I turned my 71-year-old head
to a bloke of similar age
standing gob-smacked
by the frozen veggies
and said,
We never acted like that
when we were that age, eh?’
and he allowed himself
a little smile.

Four or five cherubic boys and girls,
about ten or eleven years old,
were enjoying their bicycles
on a little-used driveway
at the park,
calling out to each other:
‘Where you fuckin going?’ and
‘Look out for that fuckin shit!’ and
‘I don’t wanna fuckin mess with that.’
and similar fuckin stuff,
and I thought:
My mode of speaking
has not disappeared
into the miasmic ether
of discarded fashions;
it’s not dying with my generation;
it looks as if
it’s gonna fuckin survive.


      21st-Century Freedom  

Maybe it’s just because I’m old
and therefore insufficiently trained,
but I dislike corporations or algorithms
telling me how to order my life and work;
it’s a constant battle,
or so it seems,
just to try to do things my way –
in ways that make sense
and are convenient to me –
a battle I’m constantly losing.


              Obvious to Him 

When puberty crept up on him,
he gave up on rugby after one season
and started devoting himself to ballet
and classes in jazz and modern dance,
and his mates asked him why?
None of them went to those classes,
which were full of nothing but sheilas!
He was the only bloke in any of them.
He couldn’t believe that they didn’t get it.
He just loved being surrounded by girls.
Contact with boys just didn’t
get his hormones pumping
or turn him on
at all.


          Indifference Tsunamis 

They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered
to do what people have to do
to defend their sorry arses
from murderous thieves
when they have football games to watch
or blockbusters to rate
or celebrities to envy
or chakras to tend to,
or online strangers to call names
and there’s nothing wrong
with dancing till dawn
They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered

They didn’t do it on purpose
They just couldn’t be bothered
Her Poca-hottie
and his Big Chief Loincloth
Indian costumes were just fun
I mean, you can’t be political all the time
So they’re oblivious to the nastiness
of sexualised cultural stereotypes
They’d never be disrespectful on purpose
They just couldn’t be bothered

They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered
They don’t mean to let
those jumbo blood-sucking mosquitos
breed out of control
and come slobbing up to the suburbs
from their diseased swamps
They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered

They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered
to question making sacrifices
and doing without, gladly 
to keep the grey gunboats
cruising up and down the river
They don’t do it on purpose
They just can’t be bothered

She didn’t do it on purpose
She just couldn’t be bothered
She didn’t intend to make his hand bleed
or to destroy his cosy peace
by exposing him to a relentless chill wind
She didn’t do it on purpose
She just couldn’t be bothered


    The Universe, Extinct Species, the Bible, & Me  

The Earth somehow survived
all those billions of years
with no humans present with language
to immortalise time
with observations and speculations and lies,
whilst millions of species
evolved and became extinct
as hundreds of millions of years rolled on,
without one member of any of them
leaving an intentional legacy:

the amphicyonid bear dogs lasted for about
forty-four million, four hundred thousand years
dying out less than two million years ago.
They lived, just as we live now.
And there were the gomphotheres,
related to elephants,
who lived from about twelve million years ago
until just 9,100 years ago,
when humans, who’d been around for about one million,
most likely hunted them into extinction.

Our unquestioningly that’s-the-way-things-are capitalism
has been around for, pish-tush, less than five hundred years,
and eternally immutable Islam for about fourteen hundred.

Compare all this with the countless forever of the cosmos,
and here I am feeling bad, ridiculously,
because of stuff that others in my species,
particularly the few whom I know,
either do or don’t do.

No wonder the young-earth, myths-are-real crowd
pathetically refuse to accept that they’re not the reason
that the universe exists,
as if it needs a reason,
especially one that puffs up people’s egos.


  Visualisation Limitation

I have a friend
in the rowing business
and so I see
the facebook view
of the rowing community.

One rowing-world photo
captured my attention
because of the complexity
of the story it told,
as all fine photos do:

it depicted a rower
receiving some award;
a champion rower,
a young woman,
accepting the silverware
in a glamorous frock
with a short hem
cut higher at the sides
at the middle of her
massively muscular thighs …

At which point,
as I was describing this,
Stan called out,
‘Stop! Stop!
‘It’s too much!
‘I can’t take any more!’

Stan must have
a highly visual
and suggestible
imagination, eh?


             Big Junior’s Flunkies

It’s not getting out
It’s not staying in
It’s why we never get to win
Twisting things beyond a doubt
It sure is the way it only is
listen to the paid spin whizz
It may not be what we’re ready for
We’re not backing down any more

It’s not rising up
It’s not staying down
It’s just a failure to get outta town
while drowning in a white café cup
No time to retrench
Just breathe in their stench
It’s a futilely fought alchemy war
We’re not backing down any more

Big Junior’s flunkies
own personal island retreats
Domination junkies
sending out cruel tweets
jingling their trunk keys
in their corporate box seats
They’re standing over you now
They won’t let you see how
you can possibly run away.

It’s not cutting through
It’s not circling around
It’s grinding your face into the ground
Big Junior smirks to you
that you choose it
you can’t refuse it
His game is deadly when he scores
We’re not backing down any more


            Spider On A Mattress

Spider, who’d once been a hammerhand,
said that he couldn’t sleep
in a bed all by himself.
Not that he went to bed all that often,
amphetamine being what it is,
but somehow, hanging out on the street
in Toronto, of all places,
in 1967, of all years,
and with long, tangled, unwashed hair and beard,
being quite a hairy arachnid,
he always managed to crash,
whenever and wherever,
with some hippie chick beside him.


        Only Human

It’s life, is all it is,
and My Lord, that baby
was life all by himself,
a compensation
for the horror of that rape;
so bright and sweet,
filled full of tomorrows,
not what’s done and gone.
Mary forgot her baby’s father –
he was only human, after all.

It’s life; it’s how it goes
Her cooking skills
outweighed her shame,
and Missus kept her on
despite the fatherless child
who grew to be a hard worker
around the big house’s grounds.
His name was Walter;
they called him Boy
and paid him a dollar a week
after room and board:
a one-room cabin
he and Mary had to share;
forget the damp –
they were only human, after all.

It’s life, so it isn’t fair
that Missy had to take a shine
to Mary’s Walter, who knew better;
even when she flirted at him
with her she-devil’s sugar-voice,
he kept his eyes to the ground
and his speech to ‘Yes, Miss’
and ‘No Miss’ and ‘Right away, Miss’,
but Mister, and Brother Eugene,
and a wagonload of nasty white men
murdered him in public
for messing with her anyway,
hanged him from a tree –
he was only human, after all.

It’s life, and nothing more,
and they never thought twice
about keeping Mary on
after lynching her boy.
She was a good cook, after all,
and a well-trained crow mammy,
with the fear of God and white men
sure to keep her in line.
Except that she began to add
certain herbs and powders
to their soups and gravies
until they all became painfully ill,
and greedy-guts Brother Eugene
wound up half blind in a wheelchair,
which is when Mary disappeared,
some said on the night train
to California,
or Seattle or some such place –
she was only human, after all.


             Chocky Birthday To You!

For your birthday I’m gonna make you
the chocolatiest cake you’ve ever eaten,
with three moist, double-chocolate layers
and my sticky chocolate fudge between them,
all covered with my chocolate ganache icing.
You’ll love it!

          Well, actually, I’m not all that fond of chocolate …

I don’t believe you!
I’m a chocoholic myself,
because chocolate is, well, everything good:
it’s like a love affair
it’s a guilty pleasure
it’s full of antioxidants
it’s hedonistic comfort food
it’s pleasingly bitter
it’s dreamy
it sparks up the serotonin
it lightens the spirit
it’s the most luscious luxury
it’s good for your heart
it connects you with your higher self
it’s an aphrodisiac
it’s the answer to every question
it is life.
How can you live without chocolate?

           Cinnamon.

What?

           Can you make my birthday cake cinnamon?
           – made with a spiced rum batter?
           – topped with butterscotch icing?
           Please?

No. I still don’t believe you.
It’s gotta be chocolate.
You deserve the best.